I Have Nothing to Complain About . . . Nothing

Romans 7:15-16 (The Message)

^14-16I can anticipate the response that is coming: "I know that all God's commands are spiritual, but I'm not. Isn't this also your experience?" Yes. I'm full of myself—after all, I've spent a long time in sin's prison. What I don't understand about myself is that I decide one way, but then I act another, doing things I absolutely despise. So if I can't be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God's command is necessary.

Physically I am capable of doing anything, with training, of course, but what I mean is that I am a perfectly able bodied person. My arms, legs, and mind work great. So, why do I continue to go down this path of thinking I am OK with eating what I want to eat and not exercising? This is really more about getting healthy than getting skinny.

My friend and I are working on a motivational plan. That if we can fit into this really cute bathing suit by such and such a date then we will take ourselves some place to wear it. That's the basic plan right now, but it's a work in progress (as are we). We gotta do something.

OK, FINE!

Yes, I have neglected this blog. Yes, on purpose. So? What? Who cares?

I do.

So, I am going to be more, MUCH more, proactive in my quest to be 'skinny like my friend Connie' who, btw, is a R A I L! I know some people are just born that way. I know she works on it. I know she's a very busy mom of 8 great children (three bio gifts and 5 gifts from China). I know that I want her body. Or at least a more fitter body than the one I have now.

So. Here goes.

I am going to get more agressive. I may get too personal. I WILL post pictures, or at least I think I am. I am going to put myself out there! You don't have to read it if you don't want to. But I have GOT to do something. I do not have a body that I am proud of. I do not treat my body like the holy temple God wants me to treat it as for His Holy Spirit to dwell in! AND I AM TIRED OF MYSELF AND MY YUCKY DIETING-LACK-OF-EXERCISING-WAYS!

My first commitment is to not eat meat. Here's why, and here's where I may get too personal, again, you don't have to read it: I have major mood swings every month. So bad that I become a person I don't like and the my family definitely doesn't want to be around. I've been doing some research and one of the first recommendations is to go vegetarian. Right now I am just not going to eat meat, but may include cheese, milk, and eggs depending on how it goes. So far, I don't miss the meat. Haven't had it since Friday evening. What I really need to give up is the beautiful white sugary stuff that I crave so very badly! But, hey, baby steps.

My next commitment is to drink more water. LOTS more water.

The last of my dietary commitments will be to stop eating anything of any caloric value after 7pm. That might be hard. I do some pretty good sneaky snacking after the kids are asleep - the Nutell@ calls my name and I grab a spoonful or two or three. I'm so bad.

Exercise will be a little difficult to fit in. I have five kids. One of them sleeps in our room (she's newly home from China and needs us close for a while;). But, I have to make it a priority. Here's a thought . . . instead of binging on food after my kids go to bed, why don't I exercise? Now there's a thought!!!

Alright, good night. Maybe I'll get brave and post some pictures of my chubby elbow tomorrow. Baby steps.